Post by Dm Alekse on Feb 18, 2020 18:40:38 GMT -7
Once again, I am freed. Do I deserve to be? Of course not. The crimes I've committed are still unpunished. Those I have wronged have received no justice, no vengeance. Countless died, and we simply wipe our hands and say its over, because its so much easier to face the next dawn that way. I sit here, watching them interrogate the Duke, and I know I should be right there beside him. Yet even as I know that is where I belong, I do not have the courage or strength to sit there. I could never give up Selise, or walk away from the new friends that I have. All I can do is strive to gain vengeance for others, to bring Justice to those who deserve it and hope that it provides some form of penitence for my own deeds.
In the end, I have no doubt that I will get what I deserve. Justice comes for us all, I think. But for now, all I can do is strive to correct my mistakes and make every moment I have with this new family worth while. When I go to my final rest, I may have many sins to bare, but I hope to have a few acts of goodness and charity as well. I'm not looking to 'balance the book.' I'm sure my account is far beyond the chance of weighing even, but if I can change even a few lives for the positive, at least I wasn't a complete failure as a person, or a paladin.
Paladin. I never did live up to that lofty title, never worthy of the word, but she is. Just looking at her, how she acts, the things she does. To call us both paladins would be to insult her gravely.
